1. |
The Taste of Iron
04:22
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I’m sick, there’s something inside me not quite right,
everything I have is now tainted with my spite.
So you, can take what you want and leave behind,
all the hatred that’s torturing my mind.
But don’t leave, there’s things here you really have to see,
Leave too soon and you’ll miss the worst of me.
Open your eyes, and look, don’t turn your head away,
these things you fear I suffer every day.
There’s nothing you can say to make it better,
Nothing you can do to change my mind,
I’m chasing the wrong kind of fixture,
I’m looking for something I just can’t find.
I know, you didn’t expect what I hide so well,
When you’re one of a kind who the fuck you supposed to tell,
So we can keep on pretending all is find,
Ill smile and laugh and keep it all inside,
Just know, this always has been, this always will be,
The never changing essence at the heart of me,
I know I deserve everything I get,
It’s self inflicted, don’t you ever forget.
I’ve bitten my tongue for far too long,
I’m hiding my self under false intentions,
The taste of iron fills my mouth,
I’m suffering from forced discretion,
I can’t deny this, I’ve got to stop hiding,
The more i’m trying I can feel myself dying,
I’m not who you think I am.
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2. |
The Charlatan
05:18
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What’s your reason for my absence?
Apart from your obvious innocence,
Cause butter wouldn’t melt on the fire from that tongue.
It changes, so quickly from right to wrong,
Disguising the weak as the strong.
You’ve hidden for too long baby.
Deluded? Or Excuses? Take your pick.
The cleanest mirror couldn’t hold your reflection.
It’s hard to remember when you choose to forget,
so easily and so damn delicately.
You’re the charlatan
Excuses will make liars of us all,
And sometimes the proud won’t fall,
Evidently.
But with such integrity
I just couldn’t see,
The darkest colours stain the worst.
Deluded? Or Excuses? Take your pick.
The cleanest mirror couldn’t hold your reflection.
It’s hard to remember when you choose to forget,
so easily and so damn delicately.
You’re the charlatan.
I was your tourniquet, a present for that past,
Father forgive her, so that she can forgive you,
‘You provoke me.’ The words of a mother that beats a child.
But answer me this: Who carries the scars?
And though the next one will hear your truth,
How long before your words go and hit the roof?
You come undone, and you’re seeing red,
With an itchy trigger finger and a loaded bed,
If I saw you in the street and passed you by,
Would you see your shoulder and then wonder why?
There’s not one word written down in a letter,
although I have a few, I’m trying to be better.
You’re the charlatan
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I don’t want love anymore,
I don’t want to waste my time thinking about who to adore,
I thought I was gripped by the weight you held on me,
But my minds been shifted,
A weights been lifted.
I choose to be free,
I choose to be free,
because,
I don’t want love anymore,
It’s crushing me, pushing me, down beneath the floor,
I refuse to crave for those who don’t deserve my affections,
I won’t ignore clear directions,
Cause I don’t want your love, anymore.
As I sat amongst the dead, I tried to clear my head, of thoughts of you.
It was clear to me, we need to bury this, so we can mourn, peacefully.
I choose to set you free,
I choose to set you free,
Because,
I don’t want love anymore,
It’s crushing me, pushing me, down beneath the floor,
I refuse to crave for those who don’t deserve my affections,
I won’t ignore clear directions,
Cause I don’t want your love, anymore.
Remember when you killed this?
You wrapped your hands around its neck, you watched it die.
I asked you for one last kiss, you gave me sweet nothing.
It meant just that. It meant just that.
And though you’ll leave with your head held high,
I think Ill stay just a little while, and wallow in the love we made.
I just wish you’d seen, that the gold and the greed, won’t satisfy those needs.
They can’t give you what I offer.
They can’t give you what I offer.
I don’t want love anymore,
It’s crushing me, pushing me, down beneath the floor,
I refuse to crave for those who don’t deserve my affections,
I won’t ignore clear directions,
Cause I don’t want your love, anymore.
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4. |
Sink. Our. Souls.
06:01
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Where do I start? This journey has no destination, a product of my isolation, a victim of procrastination.
I’d show empathy for my apathy, but it deserves no company.
You couldn’t satisfy me.
It wouldn’t satisfy me.
Impatiently I wait, it’s any minute now,
For all of this to fade, just don’t ask me how.
I will have my day, and ill wear my crown.
All of this ill reign. Another kingdom for a frown.
I will find where you are, and ill drag you down with me.
Don’t ask another question I can’t answer. Just step aboard and wave goodbye.
So where do we start? This journey has no obligations, a victim of my isolation, a product of the education. I’d show empathy for your treachery, but it deserves no company.
You couldn’t satisfy me.
You couldn’t satisfy me.
Impatiently I wait, it’s any minute now,
For all of this to fade, just don’t ask me how.
I will have my day, and ill wear my crown.
All of this ill reign. Another kingdom for a frown.
I will find where you are, and ill drag you down with me.
Don’t ask another question I can’t answer. Just step aboard and wave goodbye.
We’re sinking. We’re sinking. Oh my God we’re sinking. Abandon this broken ship.
Forget the women and children, moralities been forsaken. Come sink our souls.
Save yourself, save yourself, won’t you save yourself? Please let me drown.
I’ve sank every vessel I’ve boarded with all the hearts of which I’ve hoarded.
Come sink our souls.
The waves are made of concrete, the sharks tear flesh from our feet, the sky is darker than my intent. The water will be our grave, it’s not time to be fucking brave.
Save yourself, save yourself, won’t you save yourself? Please let me down.
The error of my ways will be washed away with the waves. Come sink our souls.
Come sink our souls.
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6. |
Not the Same
04:25
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We're not the same me and you,
there's versions of the story,
all quite contrary,
to what is quite obviously the fucking truth.
For a while I thought it was me,
tried all I could, to be the best I could be,
but with great hindsight comes the insight,
the problem lies with my company.
You try to hard to avoid the effort,
which might explain the depth of your comfort,
but the time ain't stopping for the endless clock-watching
of the apathetic and weak.
We're not the same you and me,
We're not the same me and you,
We're not the same,
We're not the same,
We're not the same you and me.
We're not the same you and me,
The things I've seen you just wouldn't believe,
the beauty and the glory of an unwritten story is whats important to see,
your existence bores me,
just a waste of all that could be,
Theres so much potential,
it drives me fucking mental,
when you waste your opportunity,
We're not the same me and you,
We're not the same you and me,
We're not the same,
We're not the same,
We're not the same me and you,
We're not the same you and I.
You're stone cold, and i'm burning inside,
but I'm not sharing, with someone uncaring,
of what it took to ignite.
We're not the same you and I,
We're not the same me and you,
We're not the same,
We're not the same,
We're not the same you and me.
We're not the same.
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7. |
Shame
04:57
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I’m addicted to the shame, though avoiding all the blame.
It takes over all I do, in this moment all I need is you.
I need you to make me feel alive, give some meaning to my life.
Come and take away my pain, come give reason for my shame.
Just know that this lust is the reason I’m breathing.
Temptation takes over, it’s got it’s claws in me, and it’s aching for release.
Come give reason for my shame.
You know damn well I’ll find a way, to try and hide it all away,
cover with more of the same, but i’m the one who’s suffering.
It’s something I can’t seem to change, so just let me have my way,
Come and take away my pain, come give reason for my shame.
Just know that this lust is the reason I’m breathing.
Temptation takes over, it’s got it’s claws in me, and it’s aching for release.
Come give reason for my shame.
And when all is said and done, when all the lust has gone,
I’m naked and alone with nothing and no one,
I’m cradled like a child, with nothing left inside,
There’s nothing left to hide when you’ve gone and lost your pride.
So come treat me like a whore, it’s all I’m good for,
Add to my pain, come give reason for my shame.
Come give reason for my shame.
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8. |
I Just Want to Sleep
02:36
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I just want to sleep.
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9. |
The Truth Is...
04:09
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The truth is… what I tell you it is,
a tired story no-one wants to read.
I’ve taken my time, twisted words to my advantage,
There’s so little truth I don’t know what to salvage.
I wish it were stranger than fiction,
I longed for my lies to come true,
But I lost track, I can’t keep going back.
I’m victim to my contradiction.
There’s only one victim here,
Screaming for attention.
But when the smoke is clear,
Your truth is my fiction.
The truth is… not what you believe,
Not what they say, but somewhere in between,
They’ve twisted my words, at their discretion,
Just give me one chance, to speak my confession.
It’s so much stranger than fiction,
The stories they tell seem so real,
My ghosts came back to haunt me,
And now I’m begging to reveal.
There’s only one victim here,
Screaming for attention.
But when the smoke is clear,
Your truth is their fiction.
A cut from Ocham’s razor stills my tongue,
The lies of which I tell you are coming undone.
Nothing I say has meaning at all,
When the webs I’ve weaved start to fall,
I wish I could tell you my true intention.
That your truth is my invention.
The truth is…
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10. |
Irreversible
01:56
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11. |
Chastised
03:36
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12. |
Hollowed
05:04
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I’m finally face to face with my sadness,
Contorting and twisting my madness.
I stab myself and open the wound,
My happiness leaks out,
I look at my reflection but I don’t recognise who’s there.
Just an empty shell of a man I once was proud of, someone no-one could ever love
just hollow eyes, and a matching hollow soul.
I’d rethink the location of my harm if I wasn’t convinced that I deserved such misery
That death was far too kind for me,
So Ill suffer myself until I find something worth my pain,
something worth the heartache,
Something I can call my own.
I fucking hate you,
Just look at you.
Look what you’ve become.
A slave to your demons.
They’ve beaten you.
They’ve left you empty.
So embrace their nature,
and scream your welcomes.
There’s places I’ve been I wish no-one to see,
There’s feelings I feel I wish only for me.
There’s places I’ve been I’ve made only for me.
There’s feelings I feel I wish only for me,
There’s places I’ve been I wish no-one to see.
These feelings I feel I wish only for me
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13. |
There's Hope
03:36
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Even in the darkest times there’s hope.
Don’t be blinded by what is brightest.
There’s hope. There’s always hope.
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14. |
This Will Never Stop
07:46
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This will never stop.
The journeys everlasting,
This road was made for testing,
Everything I am.
I'm standing at the bottom trying to plan my path,
The hill is so steep, should I cry or laugh?
A sudden urgency becomes me,
I can see the way so clearly,
I drop the weight and then I start to run,
This is how I lose control, have I have my fun,
Just you try to keep up.
This is where I was always meant to be,
Suddenly I'm free from pain and misery
This will never end,
At last the great ascend,
Let it run it's path
Lets run this path,
Lets run this path down.
The winds against me but I keep my stride,
There's nothing to fear now, nothing to hide,
Everything seems slow when you're moving so fast,
You gotta keep up the pace if nothing ever lasts,
Don't you try to warn me, don't you tell me stop,
I've done this before and I'm going to the top,
You can try to chain me, try to shame me,
try to blame me for the way that I am.
There's no slowing down once I've begun,
There's no consequence for all that I've done.
This is where I was always meant to be,
Suddenly I'm free from pain and misery
This will never end,
At last the great ascend,
Let it run it's path
Lets run this path,
Lets run this path down.
It's all good and well til I go too high.
Confusion sets in and all I hear is why.
Standing on the edge, I'm on uncertain ground,
I realise I've lost more than I've found,
I can never go back, I tore it all down,
While I laughed and I commanded,
I destroyed and I demanded,
I'm on the edge and I've lost my grip,
I bow my head and I prepare to slip.
It's time to start again.
It's time to start again.
It's time to start again.
It's time to start again.
I know this will never stop.
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